30. If you could, what is the one thing you would change about your past?

Tricky. Changing something from the past would just make me bury myself in what ifs and that is a terrible feeling. I have learned to accept my now. If I will change something, that will involve other people and I can’t do that. I can’t do that to them. I understand why they had to make such decisions, and changing that would mean that they would have to sacrifice their own happiness. I can’t take that away from them.

29. What did you really love doing as a kid but don’t really do anymore? What is stopping you from doing it now, and what would happen if you did?

I still write, so no! I will keep on writing.

28. What does it mean to be good enough, and how do you know that you are?

I just said last week that I am too subjective to a fault. What is good? What is bad? How do I know that I am good? I don’t know, really. I think that is for other people to say? (2021 Enna editing this: it’s not for other people to say, you dumb)

27. When did you hurt most, and how has it helped you or taught you or improved you?

So, I am still at my lowest point. Right now, it hurts seeing that you really just have a few friends who will not condemn you for your mistake and will help you get back up again instead. Those friends who know that you are doing your best, but they also understand that sometimes, our best is not always enough to make things work. There are things that are out of our control no matter how hard we try. It is not like you do not stick to your words, there are just really circumstances that won’t let you. They know that you are frustrated, too. I don’t know if that makes sense. However, I still try to do something and to do my best until I get to pick myself up again. And I’m really really really grateful for these people.

26. What about your life that makes you the most proud?

I am the breadwinner. So, do not ask me why I am always broke and why I have bills and debts to pay LOL My brother is still in college. He still has a year to finish, so until then, I can’t really think of myself first. But, I am proud of it because my family is very important to me.

So, you can help me by hiring me for freelance work or buy me a coffee. HAHAHAHA! But really, you reading this is enough to keep me going. It feels good to have readers. Please do not hesitate to left comments and whatnot, it makes my day 🙂

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