because I need distraction at 2am vol. 8 | soul-deep journal prompts

Hello, my cool beans. 🤟 How is your mental health lately? Are you thinking too much again? How are you handling your thoughts and feelings?

At times like this, I love doing this journal prompt from Thought Catalog. It’s been 4 months since I last did it, so I guess it’s about time to sit down and organize these thoughts.

15. Who do you need to forgive, and why, and what’s stopping you from doing it today?

I’d like to believe I’m not the type to hold grudges. Personally, it’s easy to forgive people. What’s hard is to forgive yourself. I need to forgive myself for all the bad decisions I made. I need to forgive myself for not asking for help on those times I needed it the most. I think what’s stopping me from forgiving myself is the fact that I’m still in this mess. I’m still trying to get out. Maybe then, I’ll be able to forgive myself wholeheartedly.

14. What are three things that you are really looking forward to the most?

I’m so looking forward to my brother’s graduation. His studies are one of the reasons why I can’t get out of the financial fiasco I am in, so watch me cry when this happens. It will be tears of joy and relief. I am also looking forward to traveling as well. I already have plans and a list of where I want to go once I already recover. Last but not least, I am looking forward to someone who I am meant to become.

13. What would you tell your five-year-old self?

You don’t always have to speak your mind, but you should also not let anyone silence you. Do not bottle it in, but do not explode all the time.

12. What scares you the most, and why? How can you use that fear to improve or learn or grow?

I’ve mentioned this a couple of times already; I am afraid of myself. I am so scared of what I can do. I am afraid of how much control I have and the lack of it. I am afraid of my thoughts. I am afraid of how strong my escapism is, but I am also afraid of my own determination. I am afraid of my emotions. I think with all these fears, I am already growing. By enduring all these fears, I am getting by – hopefully progressing little by little.

11. How would your life be different if you stopped living so much in the past and/or worrying so much about the future?

I live so much in the past more than I worry about the future. The future is too vague; sometimes, I don’t see myself in it. So maybe if I will stop living so much in the past, I would be able to do so much more rather than letting my previous failures talk me out of things just because ‘it might not work’ or ‘think of what you need more than what you want.’ It would be nice to live a life that secures your needs while you’re able to fulfil your wants.

I’m almost done with these journal prompts! Maybe, you can try answering them as well on your own? You don’t have to publish it online. What’s important is you are trying to organize your thoughts and be mindful of your feelings. I hope these help you get by like it does me. 😌