because I need distraction at 2am vol. 9 | speak and live your truth

One of the things that I do to honor myself is to acknowledge my thoughts and emotions. And since it’s International Women’s Day, I thought I’ll do just that by doing this series that I started 3 years ago. So.. grab your coffee (or any beverage of choice) and reflect with me. 🙂

10. What have been the five best days of your life, and why?

The things on top of my head all involved my fangirling moments! I think it’s safe to say that concerts and fan parties would always be one of the best days of my life, especially when I met 5 Seconds of Summer. After working hard with the team for years, it was fulfilling to finally met them.
When I got in my High School as a scholar. It was really a proud moment.
When I won as the president of Student Council (also in High School).
When I first boarded the plane.
When we moved in to our newly renovated house then in 2000.

9. What are the ten smallest, most minor, most insignificant things in your life that you are grateful for?

This is a hard question because the things I’m grateful for, no matter how small, always turn into something big and significant. Maybe let’s just go for mundane, tangible shizzu?

Netflix & Viu premium
Spotify premium
My bullet journal
My pillows!!
Stan twitter
Tattoos
Bangtan Academy
This blog
Maltesers hahaha
Coffee!!

Lately, I’ve been receiving coffee from readers through my Ko-Fi page. Thank you so much for your kindness. I love being caffeinated, and on top of that, it reminds me to sit down, be intimate with my thoughts and write. 🙂

You see, these things are not really insignificant. They are just… little things that give huge amount of relief, comfort, and learning.

8. Where do you see yourself in 3 months, 6 months, and 12 months? Be specific.

At home!! We’re still amidst a pandemic. :(( It’s wild thinking that one day, I’ll look back on this blog and be reminded that we indeed went through a pandemic. Okay, for real, I think in 12 months I still have the same job, still in the same house. But hopefully, I’m already doing the plans that I want to start with — like having my own small business, blogging for good, working on my poetry book. In 12 months, I see myself being able to watch Korean dramas without subtitles. 🤪

7. How do you define success, and how will you know when you have it?

Success for me would be feeling good about something you worked so hard for. Or even just acknowledging your hard work. It is a rare feeling to have (at least for me). I know that there are things that we try out, spend a lot of time on, and yet, we end up still not satisfied with the result. It sucks to feel that way because all the effort should not be taken for granted or left unnoticed. But I believe that eventually, as we look back, we can make peace with the fact that setbacks and “failures” are just all part of success. I think those who keep on trying (living through fear but still taking the courage) or know when to let go when needed (there is bravery here too) are all successful because they try and can live their truth.

6. What does love mean to you?

Love for me is respect, time, effort, commitment — to ourselves and others. I would love to write something so poetic, maybe can go with 500 words or more, but I want this to be raw. So, I’m going for the first things that pop in my head. Love is such a broad concept, a complicated feeling. I just know that it constantly grows and perseveres. It is in the choices that we make every single day. It lies in small and big gestures that sometimes it is easy to miss. Other times, it is too big for you to grasp.

*These prompts are from Here Are The 50 Best Journaling Prompts You Will Ever Read Or Need on Thought Catalog

Did you try to come up with your own answers? I hope you did!

Happy International Women’s Day! Keep speaking and living your truth until we can silence out all the lies that society put in the lips of inequality. Celebrate your truth. Celebrate every little thing about you. I love you, you are amazing.