Something weird happened earlier this morning.
I volunteered to stay in BA FM to play songs since I want to listen to some music anyway while working. I didn’t think about the playlist. I just needed to fill in the 2 hours vacant shift until another DJ could come in. I chose the one with my comfort songs. Of course, that includes your song, 우린 봄이 오기 전에. As it played, I started crying, but for completely different reasons. Some days, it makes me cry because it makes me miss you more. Sometimes, it makes me cry because it brings me back to the dark room. It brought me back to the dark room again, but for some reasons, it didn’t feel like I’m crying because I’m in that dark room. I’m crying for her. I feel so sad for her. Her in that dark room. It made me feel so sad because suddenly, it felt like I am abandoning her. It’s a very lonely place to be in, why am I abandoning her?