Healing isn't linear. I'm writing this now because I know there will be days that I might relapse again. I want to immortalize these thoughts into words so I can have a reminder to myself. I hope that it can be a reminder to you as well – that emotions are fleeting, but our words and actions are not. I hope we can live with fewer regrets. Also, I believe that if we can be mindful of our emotions, be in touch with it, we can react in a way that won't destroy ourselves and others.
The people in our lives are like chapters in a book. We meet them in certain happenstance, and sometimes, they just stay there. We can’t really expect them to be there in the succeeding chapters, and that’s fine because they still serve their purpose. They still impart something on us; they are still part of the story.
How about you? How do you express yourself?
If being hard on ourselves mean we just want to be the best version that we possibly can, then be it.
Remember when I said I’m getting a tattoo when I turned 25? It finally happened last month.
2017 was so eventful; all the changes that happened were in the form of destruction. Still, it brought lessons. 2018 is also eventful but in a completely different way. All changes that are happening now are focused on rebuilding the life I want.
Why do we cry alone? Why don't we reach out when we're sad and then wonder why we feel lonely? Why do we deny ourselves of comfort and companion and wonder why we are never in a deep relationship with people—soul to soul?