from my journal 10.13.2021

from my journal | 10132021

Hi bub, It's been a while since I last wrote something. I miss the sound of the keyboard when I type (writing for myself and not just some admin work). This is nice. I feel overwhelmed lately, bub. I think it's the ber months weighing me down. Don't get me wrong, I think I am … Continue reading from my journal | 10132021


when words don’t flow anymore…

Hi blog, Wow, that feels weird addressing the blog like this 'cause I'm always writing to Jjong in my journal. I don't know why I suddenly want to write this here instead. 🙂 So I met with a very dear friend today, and I shared about how my words don't really flow anymore. "All sad … Continue reading when words don’t flow anymore…

from my journal

from my journal | 10112022

Hi bub, Something weird happened earlier this morning. I volunteered to stay in BA FM to play songs since I want to listen to some music anyway while working. I didn’t think about the playlist. I just needed to fill in the 2 hours vacant shift until another DJ could come in. I chose the … Continue reading from my journal | 10112022

from my journal | 01312022

Hi bub, Let me tell you a little secret.. Every time I lie down and about to sleep, I feel like crying. If I don’t cry, I just feel so sad and alone. I don’t know why I’m so lonely, bub. I have people around me, but why am I always lonely? Do not get … Continue reading from my journal | 01312022

please send help…

My dear readers, Our aunt is still in ICU and our bill is already 1.1M ($20,000). We badly need your help—any amount is greatly appreciated. 🙏 She is diagnosed with: Acute Respiratory Failure Acute Coronary Syndrome NSTEM Heart Failure Reduced Ejection Fraction Community Acquired Pneumonia Active Kidney Injury On Top of Possible Chronic Kidney Disease … Continue reading please send help…

Genshin Impact

Genshin Impact Notion Tour + How I Play

[This is not a genshin-themed notion. This is actually my notion page for playing genshin.] I started playing Genshin sometime in May. So obviously, I'm still pretty new into the game. There are a lot of things I don't know yet and I'm still in the process of figuring out what I want to do … Continue reading Genshin Impact Notion Tour + How I Play

from my journal on jonghyun's birthday

from my journal | 04082021

[trigger warning: violence and murder] ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ Happy birthday, bub!!! You would have been 31 years old today. I am 27 now, your age when you braved it all for the last time. I'm sorry if I still cry every time it's your birthday or it's the 18th. But I don't cry everyday now even if … Continue reading from my journal | 04082021

do not mind me…

Do not mind me... I'm just wondering why sleep doesn't come even I will it to, even after hours of tossing and turning, and trying and trying. Didn't I do enough trying during the day that it has to stretch into the night until today and tomorrow overlap? Do not mind me... I'm just wondering … Continue reading do not mind me…