Healing isn't linear. I'm writing this now because I know there will be days that I might relapse again. I want to immortalize these thoughts into words so I can have a reminder to myself. I hope that it can be a reminder to you as well – that emotions are fleeting, but our words and actions are not. I hope we can live with fewer regrets. Also, I believe that if we can be mindful of our emotions, be in touch with it, we can react in a way that won't destroy ourselves and others.
I hope you're having a good life. A life you are not trying to survive on a daily basis but rather a life you really get to live.